It finally happened, I give! 2009 was the year I had to let it all go.
Jan thru March started out nice and normal. Trying to get the docs to listen to symptoms, twirling my heart out and generally minding my own business.
March led the Poletential team to New York where owning a Pole Dancing studio started to take on a life of its own. I was no longer in control of our destiny, it seems to be pre-destined. Since March, we have traveled as well as having guest instructors. We had a instructor win a championship and we have inspired and been inspired. I had no control of any of it.
April and May proved that all of my worlds would collide whether I liked it or not. Long lost high school friends visit the studio, Facebook makes it impossible to contain the worlds, I add another St. Charles volunteer committee to my already long list all while trying to control family issues that would surely not cooperate.
June was the big test. Did you know that you can't control the smoothness of a lake while trying to wake board? How about hundreds of kids during a skit at Scripture Camp? Ok, the big test, an 8 year old boy being "forced" to attend Scripture Camp and stay at your house. My resolve to control was really crumbling by this point.
July was the nail in the coffin. 8 Year old came back for more "fun". I could not get a smile to save my soul. Husband lost job. To reduce the stress from losing his job, husband went for a run. Broke his leg. Docs still not listening to symptoms. Called for Jury duty.
By this point, I'm starting to listen to the path God is pointing me to follow. One of "Let Go, Let God". Huh, He doesn't really know me. Husband, while still on crutches, decides to co-chair the St. Charles Fall Festival. Husband then decides its a great time to get more hair implanted. All I want is a great cup of tea. That I can control. Hot water poured on oven controls. Need new oven.
I surely could not control the amazing demand at the studio in October. We had a record number of parties, a USPDF champion, an amazing "Twirloween" and rockin guest instructors. I also had a husband with Swine Flu. My neighbor had to mention Stella & Dot. So not in control.
Ok, I can get a handle on this for the end of the year. OOPs... it was NOT in my control that the Unit next to the studio became vacant. Poletential doubles its space in 2010. Husband gets accepted to Notre Dame to complete a teaching certificate. Kish Marketing launches its business with two new clients. Both want to launch web sites in January 2010.
I'm smart enough now to know that I've lost all control. The school built behind my house blocking my beautiful view will open in 2010. So will the 150 Townhouses. Husband will continue to throw me curve balls. Clients will demand. Family will have issues. Docs won't listen. Phoenix and Faith will still wake us up 3 times a night. There will never be enough time to twirl. I have officially given up.
But, all the surprises that happened while letting go...priceless. Join us in stripping away conformity to live outside the box in 2010. Carpe Diem.
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Friday, January 1, 2010
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